A wonderful boss,infact rarest of rare ,near to impossible to get a Boss like him.I had learnt many tings,professionalism to a more professional extent.Life had shown a 360 degree turn in last 19 months.Today my tryst with KDC came to an end.A happy ending though,feels liek a surrogated mother.From tomorrow will be going to office just for surfung and again a godo thing came on way today when my Boss said me that if in any case afetr 15 days of joining a new job,didn’t find it right,do let him know and can join back again.Itna to apne bhi nahi karte.

From this moment,someone would be using my table,a chair,a computer,laptop,those cupboards where once i also stackedup some important clothes.I will miss that Captain Munir’s flight everyday at 7:30 a.m(Munir is my Driver and i used to call him Captain Munir cozof his driving skills),a return flight back with same captain and crew at 4:00.

Aur phir bahut kuch likhunga,par time is short.

And yes guys there no system of farewell here,so i am gonna msis that scnacks which are best part of any farewell and ofcourse cake.

Chalo guys,aaj se thode din ke liye ek tagless banda  hoon.A perosn without any clear goal in life,what he wants to do and achieve in life.

Bus,Aur kuch nahi badla…aur nahi badlega…

Ek Employee no 6201 ki file hai jo aaj se thode saal tak dhul khati rahegi between somewhere behind the stacks.

Aaj pata chal ,bina portfolio ke “mantriji” ki life kaisi hoti hogi..

TheeRain

1. Why no matter which side of the street I am on waiting for the bus, there always seems to be plenty of buses plying on the opposite side, but none on my side.

1. Why every time I hit the “up” button on the elevator, the one going down arrives first.

1. Why the more I study for the exams, the better gets my chances of screwing them up.

1. Why every time the professor in class asks a student some question, I always know the answer to it by heart, but when it is my turn to answer questions, I am always dumbstruck and dumbfounded.

1. Why every gal I have a crush on has a crush on somebody else, and gals who have a crush on me do not interest me in the least.

1. Why every guy from my college who was academically superior to me has a better job, and every guy academically inferior to me has a good looking wife.

1. Why every time I try to guess the correct answer to a true/false question in the exams, I end up choosing the wrong option.

1. Why every time I check the prices for mangoes(i love it…) before buying them, they are 1 KD each, but every time I forget to check their price, they are 1.80 KD each.

1. Why every time I wake up late, I have all the unfinished jobs in the world to do before I leave for job/work.

1. Why my fellow passengers have always been uninteresting couples with badly behaved kids throwing a tantrum every now and then whenever I traveled in a train.(Happened in India too and talked to my wifey also)

1. Why every time I try to make some excuse for not getting hurt and still get caught by wifey.

1. Why every time I tell myself that I do not have the time to cook, and my body should understand and cooperate and use up all the fat reserves, I end up feeling hungrier than ever. Perhaps my stomach has no brains.

1. Why the probability of me meeting my papa everyday always increases a hundred fold whenever I am thinking about his belongings or with his belongings.

1. Why when we lived in an era with no call waiting on the phone, every important call for papa came whenever I used to be on the phone.

1. Why mirrors in shopping malls are strategically placed everywhere so that every time you pick up a sexy dress, the fatso in the mirror sarcastically laughs back at you.

1. Why every time I am done buying something (say a camera, a laptop, a webcam, whatever), its price either goes down or I see a better deal elsewhere.

1. Why every time I am the least prepared for task of my project, the bossie seeks my opinion on topics the most.

1. Why every time some guy in the group starts going out with some gal, I am always the last one to know.

1. Why every time a beautiful girl on the plane is looking lost trying to find her seat and I pray that the empty seat beside me better be hers, she finally goes ahead and seats at the remotest corner in the plane.

1. Why lip sticks look great on every woman especially on screen, but when i find it ona girl/women passing by looks like a blood-sucking vampire.

1. Why whenever I absentmindedly scratch my hair,bite my nails or dig my nose(which i do least often) in an empty room, someone walks in without preamble.

1. Why of all the 15 odd 10 year old kids who were by themselves in Vimal Mama’se’s wedding, I was the only kid who sat on a broken chair and thus fell into the adjacent gutter/drain on a cold, wintry night.

1. Why every time I make a resolution of working the most on a particular weekend, I end up doing nothing.

1. Why every time i expect wifey’s call most and didn’t get to hear her voice.

1. Why every beautiful girl is engaged, married, lesbian, or has migrated to Antarctica.

1. Why every time my friend P would call me up back at home, I would be in the loo.

1. Why every time I study lead, arsenic, and cadmium, a question on mercury comes for the exams.(It happened most of the times during school days/coolage days)

1. If the hypothesis of a good looking person always marrying a bad looking spouse is true, should I prefer considering myself good looking or should I prefer having a good looking wife instead.(Nothing can’t be done now…)

1. Why every time I forget the phone and imagine wifey trying to call me up, I rush back at the end of the day only to find that no one called me up.

1. Why any shirt/tshirt that looks good on me always looks better on my friends.

1. Why just when I reach the crossing does the light turn red.(Roz ki bimari hai,since last 1.5 years havent gone back home without stopping at a signal)

1. Why every time I stood on the left in a crowded train, the lady on the right always got a seat first.

1. Why good looking men always have bad taste in women.

1. Why every time I went to a party thinking that I looked the best, there were men who always looked better than I did.

1. Why every time someone clicked the camera without telling me, either my eyes were shut or my paunch was showing.

1. Why every time I had an important appointment to attend to, the alarm clock would ditch me.

1. Why every time I sat down to watch India playing, Ganguly got out.

1. Why in school, every time the teacher would seat me beside the dull, irritating, and the most uninteresting girl.

1. Why every time I would need my glasses, I would forget to put them in the case.(So abhi mein case carry nahi karta hoon)

1. Why every time I would go on for a photo-clicking spree, the batteries would run low.

1. Why every time there would be a huge queue to get a platform ticket, there would be a paunchy ticket inspector right at the gate.

1. Why I can never determine what spices to put in what food and always end up cooking horrible food with all the wrong spices.

1. Why every time I am in a huge family gathering, some aunty of mine always has to recount inappropriate stories (mainly on the wrong timing of peeing,crying and shitting) from my childhood to the other people.

1. Why every time I have a nightmare of getting onto a weighing machine and the pointer crazily deflecting to the left, it is actually never a nightmare, but stark, harsh reality.

1. Why every time when a girl decides to wear something adventurous and revealing to college,her dad would go to office late or come home early.

1. Why every time I am on the phone and am required to note down something, maybe a number or an address, I can never find a pen in the radius of some 10 feet.

1. Why I can usually remember any persons’ vehicles number once i saw it or telephone numbers how long it may be , but usually never the date of birth.

1. Why every time I miss the bus despite running to get is the bus I needed to take, and why whenever I reach the bus stop on time, it is never the bus I needed to take that arrives first.

1. Why every time I sneaked into the kitchen at night, I’d get caught by mom. And guess what? Even now I have this habit of looking here and there to make sure that no one is around when I am hogging on food from the fridge, though I very well know that NO ONE IS AROUND.

1. Why it feels low and disappointed on the day when i am missing her the most and say her how much she means to me in my life.

So what you are wondering 2day…

TheeRain

I carry myself with a broken heart…
when i find myself…lost in the dark..!!!!

Two persons are true soulmates if they are comfortable sharing silence together” …..

very true …..

Ek,Do,Teen,Char,Panch,Che,Saat,Aath,nau,Dus,Gyarah,Bara,Tera…..

Yes i m learning maths or may be MADhuri’s spirit is in me who makes me dance on this peppy number. I am counting days ,will see mom,bro and especially wifey.BTW(means by the way..he he..u idiots) nerve provoking excitemnet which is there in last countdown from 10 to 1 while launching satelite is incomparable to ;when actually you have bulit or designed it.And yes i went to watch a classical dance programme ,few kind persons gave me a pass which costed 10 KD for free to attend the programme.Believe me ,for the first time i found it interestingand enjoyed the music,till date i used to have impression that those male classical dancers are gay.I really enjoyed it.Developed one more interest in my bag and simulataneously searching for classical music on net for FREE.A confession that really didn’t enjoyed with heart and soul,was somewhere else and was looking at my wrist watch.Addicted to talk to her.She was so firm in her words yesterday and so do i; blindly ,but got her SMS that she will have a nice slumber,which she ususally does and i went back home with a nightmare.I actually was sure off that i will be able to see her and she will be awake.Anyway,doesn’t make any difference.I was furious with myself as on next day R uncle felt bad too coz of my early departure,when he siad i was searching you so that we can have dinner together and expected me to stay till end.Didn’t have anywords except to feel and say sorry about.

Kuwait saga is soon going to end.And happy for that.When i tried to sort out the balance sheet ,it came to a big ZERO(A quantity and quality of no importance,that’s the definition acording to dictionary.)in terms of everything;money,savings,relations,happiness,rants etc…She says will start agin form scratch,but why,isn’t 20 months a good bunch of time.And a gospel truth,yes,things get subsided day by day ,lost all the excitment and enthusiasm what i had and i am  not the same what i want to be and what i was.Aur jab scratch se hi start karna hai to will fill my bags again and hope this time it doesn’t get void.

My papa always said that remember one thing “You can’t clap with one hand”.Perhaps i lost today my most precious treasured possesion , a pen which was mightier than every penny on planet.So an era came to an end after almost 11 years.Will get the same new one if i can afford it !But,it’s O.K someday it would have been,bit earlier.Now i am left with  his another Hero ink pen,a Titan watch given to me on my 14th birthday,his 2 shirts and few of his mails which we exchanged when internet just took birth.I remember me paying 100 bucks for 1 hr in cybercafe.Lots of blessings,good teachings and preachings  and his professional paperworks and files.Ahhh list is more than enough for me to keep him alive in me.

My laptop is giving me trouble these days coz of connection problems.As post title says i am waiting for the time where there will be no biasness,no diplomacy,no self centredness,a world of commitment and dedication.If it seems i dream on a starry day,yes i do.I have lot of work to do,lots of things still unexplored here.Now i feel tired and exhausted.

I am being tagged now to write on a sereas note leaving humour beside what actually i want to do or i wish:

So now , just to fool god into thinking I am not such a bad guy , I need your help.This is serious now.

I want to sponsor a kid/ child , but -

-> Given the nature of my work , I cannot make regular visits , hence I intend to extend help , financially and otherwise, through correspondence .

-> I do not want it to be a mechanical cheque writing exercise , I want to know about the child , his progress , his life on a regular basis . I want to know him as a child , not as an address I send some money to.

-> There are many such programs on the internet . But I want the kid to be actually helped , hence it would help if any of you has been involved with any such work or can guide me to a program which achieves what it promises .

My experience with any such thing is zero , to be precise . But I definitely want to make a start now , and I do not know anyone who can guide me . If you can , please do mail me at dhiren.sshah@yahoo.com I would be grateful.

I am not a millionaire but atleast i can sponsor for his education,i don’t mind if i doesn’t make potential savings.My experience in kitchen is being moulded now to a good chef.I prepared omlette,maggi,dal(RTC),corn chat,macaroni,kellogs corn flakes.I didn’t have any complaints for my wifey or for anyone but what i have is everything with me.I can’t deny that i many times expected that one fine night she will call me and ask what you had in dinner or whether you had your dinner or not?Feels good,;uske bina bhi it feels good too.Anyway its not a  grave issue to poner upon,so thought  discarded.And i said her today that please think its ours when she had asked for certain things ,not with other intention especially just to think and act like that especially for the matter which she said.Aur ha my wifey says if i get angry for anything related to her just be angry on her and scold her.Kya karu,even if i want to.Suggestions welcome.

And one last thing . Earlier this day , while browsing the net for something young single(for time being) men generally browse in their free time , I read that Mandira Bedi has apologized for wearing a saree with the Indian flag featuring below her waist.I mean , we Indians really need to find something to do , or we will just keep harassing girls who are brave enough to host a cricket show without knowing anything about cricket .

Soemthing to leave you by,something touchy and true.

પ્રેમમાં દિલની વાતને સામેના પાત્રને જણાવવી ખુબ જરુરી છે. પ્રેમમાં માત્ર ભાગ્ય પર વિશ્વાસ રાખીને બેસી રહેવાથી કઈ ફાયદો થતો નથી. જો કોઈને ખરેખર પ્રેમ કરો છો તો તેને કહો… દિલ ખોલીને કહો…! ‘ના’ સાંભળવાથી ડરૉ નહી…!

ખોટું ન લાગે તો વાત એક કહું
હું થોડા દિવસ હવે તારામાં રહું?

કામમાં હશે તો હું વાત નહીં માંડું
મૌનમાંય કોઈ દી ના છાંટા ઉડાડું
સમણાંનો કાયદોય હાથમાં ન લઉં… હું થોડા દિવસ…

કોણ જાણે હિમશી એકલતા જામી
વૈદો કહે છે: હૂંફની છે ખામી
કહે છે તારામાં લાગણી છે બહુ… હું થોડા દિવસ …

રોજ એક ઈચ્છા જો સામે મળે છે
આંખોમાં ભીનું થઈ નામ ટળવળે છે
તારામાં તારાથી આગળ નહીં જઉં… હું થોડા દિવસ …

રસ્તામાં પાથરેલ કાંટા જો મળશે
મારી હથેળી પછી પગ તારો પડશે
વેદનાનો ભાર હું એકલો જ સહું… હું થોડા દિવસ…

કહેણ મોસમનું કોઈ મને ભાવતું નથી,
મને સાચકલે મારામાં ફાવતું નથી.
આમ ટીપાની ધાર બની ક્યાં સુધી વહું?… હું થોડા દિવસ

Love you so much may  whatever it be…

TheeRain

Four months later, at a hospital.
“So, what did the doctor say?”
“I’m pregnant.”
“What?!”
“Yes.”
“Oh.”

(silence)

“So we really have been doing it right.”
“Apparently.”
“Hmmm.”
“You know that friend of yours?”
“The one I finally asked what goes where, you mean?”
“Yes.”
“What about him?”
“Could you beat him up for me?”
“But why?! He helped! We should be thanking him!”
“I don’t think so. If he really wanted to help, he would have told us about contraception.”

-tHEErAIN

Chao…

Ahh and a sereas confession to make(Sorry darling..i cheated you…you know can’thurt you but need to say you someday…)i have fallen in love with someone so special i have been looking since last many years…the presence ..the charisma..the smile…(hye mein marjawa chole bhature khake…) everything of hers is been perfect…she doenst bring herself ..she brings representative sample of god’s perfection…her “NATURE”(nature samajte ho na bhai…) self reliant,extraordinarily innocent ,flamboyant looks,understanding ,intelligent…(lagta hai kuhc jyada hi ho gaya) ahhhhhh…uhhhhhhhhhh..okie okie..talking about LISA RAY… infact i am in love with her…i watched ball and chain movie of hers thrice in 2 days and hollywood bollywood twice in 2 days…sacchi…i m totally fida on her..collected all the possible snaps available on net(u dirty minds..snaps pure kapde mein hain…aur harek ke liye pure kapde ki definition alag hoti hai..right)wifey,i am a good boy.Abhi time nahi hai els would have written a book on her.Office mein aur bhi to kaam hote hai blogs likhne ke alawa.

Hey darling,

“Lidho hato janam mein saune prem karva mate ,

vachma tame,jarak vadhare gami gaya”

Yes yes i know,brahm gyan to muje hota rehta hain.Even one more personal experience of mine so that you all can’t deny my intelligence.

“Women have a bad habit of getting their hair cut JUST when it’s looking good.”

-TheeRain
Is sentence ka papa mein hoon.

Hey My love,

Come soon….

Missing you….

And yes i have been thinking to rename my blog or start a new one…

any suggestions?

i thought of a name : the life and loves of an Irreverent Reverend

Aur ha mere gol mol stumbling kids ka bhi naam bhi aya hai…

Shlok

Angira

Naiya and Navik

(I m not shanno mausi…)

Chao(MTV per VJ ko bolthe huye dekha tabse mein bhi sikh gaya)

The horrid thing about the world is that you’re constantly being made to be someone other than yourself. The nice thing about life is that you invariably, can’t help being yourself.

Blood.
Rejection.
Hurt feelings of person(S) i love

Three people who make me laugh:

Popeye.
Tom n Jerry.
The kids.

Three things I love:
Writing.
Reading poetry.
Looking up at the starry sky.

Three things I hate:

The fact that someone is self centred or only thinks about one side even when you have given up everything.
My married friends ranting about mallikas curves.
Rejection.

Three things I don’t understand:
Biology.
Women.
Women who studies/studied biology.

Three things on my desk in office:
The dictionary.
Lots of pens and pencils and paper.
Bits of stick on papers with deadlines written on them that I never seem to read.

Three things I am doing right now:
Wondering where my life is gonna take me from here.
Thinking about lot of why’s and searching for their answer.
Drinking water and having biscuits .

Three things I want to do before I die:
Travel all around the world.
Watching my own baby ,my own bundle of joy being brought in to this world.(Bhagwan muje shakti de)
For that want need to get married and spend a lifetime loving wifey with all love,passion,commitment and dedication.

Three things I can do:
Manipulate people- that is what they say.
Cannot ccept the things or person . That is what they say.
Dream. That is what I say.

Three things you should listen to:
The heartbeat of the person you love.
The inner voice.
The mirror. It seldom lies.

Three things you should never listen to:
Palm readers. Am still searching for the fraud who told my folks that am gonna die a spinster.
Seminars. They are meant for free food and naps.
Friends who call you up all excited on 04/01 and tell you they are getting married. That is a lesson well learned.

And of course- parents. Stop borrowing their experiences, go get up and learn things on your .Do on your own rather then being a handicapped without someones support !!!!

Three things I would like to learn:
To keep her happy without hurting.
The basic art of sketching.
Biology(All the biological processes are still unclear and difficult to undertsand).

Three beverages I drink regularly:
Coffee.
Milk.
Apne Gum(Not fevikwik)

Din add water as that goes without saying.

Three TV shows I watched or love to watch:
Tom and Jerry.
Friends.
Swabhiman.

And abhishek is getting married.I will too.my lips are sealed , my fingers are tied , and all I can say is what it would be to see my love ,meether and be with her.talk to her.Sorry ladies , first Abhishek , now me . And for me , she is way far far far better than Aishwarya .
And my favourite gujarati poem dedicated to my love:

આન્ખ બન્ધ કરુ, તુ સ્વપ્ન થા,
અન્ખ ઉઘાડુ, તુ સાકાર થા.
હમેશા તને પાસ રાખવા ઇચ્છુ છુ,
નયનો ઉઘાડા છે, તુ કીકી થા.

સજળ નયનો છે, તુ અશ્રુ થા,
અશ્રુ સરે છે, તુ મોતી થા.
ખજાનો આ જતન કરવા જેવો છે,
મારા દિલ ની પેટી મા તુ બન્ધ થા.

અધબીડાયેલા હોઠ છે, તુ ચુન્બન થા,
હુ આદમ થાઉ, તુ ઇવ થા.
પ્રેમ ની પરિકલ્પના સાકાર કરવા,
હુ સર્જક થાઉ, તુ સર્જન થા.

જિન્દગી એક સફર છે, તુ મન્જિલ થા,
હુ રાહિ થાઉ, તુ હમસફર થા.
મારા સ્વપ્નો ને સાકાર કરવા,
મારા હોસલાઓ ની તુ બુલન્દી થા.

અન્ત નક્કી છે આ જીવનનો, તુ સજ્જ થા,
જીવન રુપી ફકરા નુ તુ પૂર્ણવિરામ થા.
મ્રુત્યુ બાદ નુ જીવન જીવી શકુ માટે -
મારા શરુઆત નો તુ જ અન્ત થા.

“Kuch to tanhaayi ka ehsaas
Mujhe kam hoga…..
Mere saaye se, agar mujhe
Mila de koi.”
TheeRain

                                      Recently i have been reading Erich Segal’s Lovestory(Ofcourse in my office,again don’t say to my bossie).Erich bhai likhte hai ki”When you are in love you don’t need or feel sorry for anything”.Sahi hai mamu.Anyway ,my thoughts goes like this:Everyone wants a person with whom he can share and say everything,a person who undertsands you without even uttering words,who knows everything about you and that person is said to be a “SOULMATE”.This is what i always wanted ; a soulmate rather than a life partner.And by the way in last 20 months i can say that the thing whihc i alwasy hated ;to get clicked(meelord humein pata hai hum kaise dikhte hai).Yes,my list of snaps have came to 358 ,of Kuwait,Saudi and Dubai along with few places i visited.Infact there came a change of 360 degres in me(see the title of this post) after i commited my life for “her”,after “she” came in to  my life.The first thing i thought when i decided to go to India last year for getting engaged to “her” was would get myslef clicked in this or that way before and after getting engaged.But unfortunately i lost all excitement and enthusiasm.Everything went wrong…almost everything..No comments please on causes and effects.This time will be sharing many things,words,ideas,thoughts and feelings and hope atleast “she” would listen and ask me the reasons why i felt so.

I m missing “her” to an intolerable extent.Bus aur koi line aa nahi rahi hai….

uhhhhhh..now my list of things i would love to do before i die:

1)Listen to “her” heartbeat everyday and forever ,whom i love most ,more than anyone else and anythng else on this planet.Really guys,the feeling to listen heartbeat of the person you love is beyond any words to express.

2)To call “her” in the middle of the night and say how much i love”her”.

3)To be awake and still dream being with “her”.

4)To just think of dropping and giving up everything on planet as i act ,rather than worrying about tomorrow and setting limits.Worth a try atelast.

5)To feed my kid(s) and watch cartoon together while sitting on a sofa.

6)Say sorry to mummy for neglecting her.(Sorry mommy,you are worth more than million of joys and regret and repent for what i did to you for….)

7)Love “her” madly and beyond limits.

8)To get the love somehwat to an extent  along with respect what i got form my papa.Papa i miss u everyday and everymoment and yes,infact of my eye burning search to search you,all things gone invain>i am sure i would not have felt what i am feeling since last 1.5 years if you would have been there.

9)To spend time with “her” and only with “her” without any contacts and disturbances from anyone.

10)List may be endless ..better to finish it up here…

And yes JAAN..something dedicated to you…..

I search deep within my soul…
To find a piece of you within.
What I feel inside has grown,
Reached the level of something I can’t control,
where before I’ve been.
I search deep within my heart…
Beating slowly…
And I know with each heartbeat those memories stay behind,
They become the past as they release me.
I search deep within my thoughts…
Sweet lingering thoughts of you…
For I have you to thank…
(You know my dream ..whisper in your ears and say I LOVE YOU for n no.of times)
You’re the only person I had and will ever love more than anythng else on this planet.
Then I think about us
And I’m glad I can call you mine,
For now you’re a part of me…
And that’s how it will be…even beyond the end of time. I love you  madly and thanks for coming in my life…. TheeRain

[God has logged off]

Me: (sigh) Why Me?

To be Continued…